I don't know how much I want to spread this around.
We don't have an official investigation because we can't have one, but if people know that any reports are also meaningless, I worry they'll stop reporting anything to us. But is it better to let them think that we can do something that we can't? Frankly, it's accurate for people to lose their faith in us.
"What makes you so sure we lost our childhoods?" Dante shakes his head, disagreeing. "I don't know what your memories have shown you, but mine have been different periods of time. When he's on the island with his friends, he's younger than I am--at least, I think he is. He's shorter and it just feels like I don't know as much as I do in other memories. But I remember going in and out of the simulation of that city, and I'm taller. I've got broader shoulders. I feel older. Nobody said we're remembering these things at the same age we were when they actually happened, you know."
Now he's lying, and it's in classic Dante fashion. Because he's shorter and slighter when he's inside Castle Oblivion, when he kidnaps that princess and when he's so certain he died. He's shorter and slighter when he closes himself in side this world of darkness he's remembered, an afterworld that must somehow have a passage of time, since he remembers himself later on, taller and broader and with that underlying sense of regret. Yes, he might be remembering things from a wide span of time, but that doesn't negate what it is that Togusa's saying, that they were kids when all of this began.
But he also can't let Togusa's opinion of their apparent lost childhoods prevent them from learning as much as they can about their pasts, either; and neither can he let that be a reason why they shouldn't utilize the skills they're being given.
Togusa thinks he has such a good read on Dante by this point that he doesn't question it. He nods along slowly, until a sharp frown comes to his face. "How can people be remembering things from later in their lives?" It's a more comforting idea, by far, but his mind briefly rebels at it.
"If that's true, then I'm right, and these are memories of another lifetime entirely. It's not us." And the fact that the concept backs up that idea is probably why Togusa hinges on it so much. "It's still- not the easiest thing to see. But maybe better. Maybe James was a cop, or a soldier, the other version of him learned it all later in life. It still isn't fair to shove that on someone so young."
But there's a relaxation in Togusa's shoulders. "But I'm willing to admit I'm being unfair about this. I just still can't find a good reason for it in my mind."
Still, even if it becomes known that the reports are becoming meaningless, the fact that there are officers still willing to help must mean something? In my eyes, it certainly does.
At this point, it's not our willingness I'm questioning. And I doubt it would be what comes to others' minds, either. It's our ability. How much good does it actually do to involve us, if this is the result?
Me, your brother. Matsuoka, Sakakura, Lou, Kadam. Even Kihara, even though he's not field. I know we're in this for the long haul. None of us would back away by choice. So the willingness is what people can count on.
[ it probably says something that, upon suddenly remembering retrospec and all things related, gabranth's first and immediate instinct is to text togusa. well, after he'd dealt with that message from prompto, anyway. speaking of which— ]
Prompto sent me something about whether or not he's "kidnap material"? Is something going on that I should know about They've switched my memories off and on again like some kind of bloody lightbulb and I feel I've missed something very important
[On his end, Togusa lets out the most relieved sound and actually half-collapses into his couch. One thing is going right this month.]
Sir. You have NO IDEA of how glad I am to hear from you.
For starters, don't worry about Prompto, he sent just about everybody that question, but he's Not Talking To Me right now, so I haven't been able to ask where it came from.
There's a lot to cover. You sure you're okay doing this over the Network?
I figured you already knew but I had to say it anyway.
[ Mostly because Yoon-sung (and his own conscience) guilt tripped him into it. ]
And yeah, that's why I was using the Colt at the range. It's supposed to be a pretty similar variant. It was as close as I could get to the real thing without actually dragging it in and probably causing a whole scene.
[ it's a bit late for a meeting at the precinct, no matter how surreptitiously they pull it off. still, he's also not sure if he can let this wait until monday. ]
I can come to your place or you can come to mine Unless you've got a better idea
I can come to you. I'll bring what I have, but I will warn you now, it's going to be less than you'd like it to be.
[It feels strange, but Togusa would rather do this on Gabranth's territory. Everything he has is his own writeups of things, because once he figured out what was going on with their records? He wrote a backup based on what he could remember. He heads over immediately.]
Well, I've got bad news and worse news, you can decide which is which. The handgun age limit is federal, so regardless of local laws, you're not allowed to own that gun. But I'm pretty sure I shouldn't waste my time confiscating it, because I throw that in an evidence locker, it is going to find its way back to you.
But it also means you can't register it, yourself.
You got anybody who can take a look at it, something that old, make sure it's still in fireable condition?
I think people will place faith in that willingness, regardless. There are not many avenues others can go to for help, at least not in terms of any real authority. And while your abilities may be limited for now, no one plans on keeping it that way.
You should tell them, I think. They'll have a better perspective on it than I, an outsider.
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