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Togusa

This is Togusa. Feel free to message me at any time.

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From:

daemonized

[God, please don't tell him of terrible pranks and their consequences. There's only so much he can handle with these boys.]

Do whatever you think is sensible. My main concern is that I do not need another way for this boy to get hurt, given his propensity to find himself injured, as you're well-aware.

I can mention it to Fynn, or have Prompto talk to him. Later, though, once he's had a moment to cool off.

From:

standalonehuman

Cooling off being Fynn or Prompto or both? Which one do I need to be watching my step around?

From:

daemonized

Prompto. He didn't want me to tell you. He thinks you consider him a "walking disaster".

From:

standalonehuman

[There is a long breath out on Togusa's end. He has come off that way to Prompto, hasn't he?]

He's more than responsible enough to handle this. I know people who are idiots with guns, and he's not on that level. Run him through the safety course, tell him the things he might not have thought about, and he'll follow it to the letter, I know.

From:

daemonized

And I agree with you. I know he's responsible, but I'd rather him not keep these sort of things from me to begin with. He had it in his possession for an entire week, and he only told me because he let it slip in text.

From:

standalonehuman

Wait, wait, wait, back up a second.

Why does he have a responsibility to tell you? We're his friends, but he doesn't have to tell us everything.

Are you more worried that he has the gun or upset that he didn't tell you?

From:

daemonized

Both.

And yes, I know he's under no obligation to tell me, but the expectation is there regardless.

From:

standalonehuman

Why?

From:

daemonized

Because I feel responsible for him.

[It's not untrue, but there's something else there, something he doesn't dive into just yet. A second or two passes.

Ardyn hesitates... before deciding that there's no harm in divulging this with Togusa. He's a friend, he should know.]

Or rather, I should say that I feel /guilty/, and because of that, my overprotectiveness has reached new heights.

From:

standalonehuman

Guilty?

[Whatever Togusa was expecting, it wasn't that. He hasn't done anything to Prompto, what could he possibly be guilty-]

Did you somehow do something to Prompto here, or is it another memory Retrospec is feeding you?

From:

daemonized

It was another memory. From sometime at the end of last month.

It was a shared one, actually. Prompto remembers it clearly, too, just from his point of view. It was very mundane, us chatting outside. I was telling a story, which was innocent enough, but it was what I felt at the time that truly bothered me. I felt disdain towards him. Stronger than that, perhaps. As if he were nothing, inconsequential, barely even human. Worse than that, a sort of bitterness that I cannot put into words.

What sort of man feels that way towards /Prompto/, of all people? And thus, in this reality, I feel guilty for it.

From:

standalonehuman

That was his feeling. Not yours.

I know, simple words, you were the one that felt it. And it felt like you were the one having it. Same reason I feel guilty over the death of a man who never existed. It's hard to separate out. But if Prompto knows that moment and doesn't resent you for it, why resent yourself?

But, be honest with yourself. Is that really why you are expecting Prompto to tell you these things? Just driven out of guilt? To make up for something that someone else did?

From:

daemonized

Prompto doesn't know. I didn't tell him what I felt. /That/ man certainly didn't show it to him, in the memory. He smiled the whole time.

[Everyone has told him the same, though. Grell and Rosalind both. Now Togusa. He should feel better about it because of that, he knows he should.]

I care about his well-being, too, of course. And we've talked quite a bit, since Retrospec came into our lives. I expected that there was at least some level of bond between us that would compel him to /tell/ me about Retrospec sending him a gun.

From:

standalonehuman

[Haa ha, got you to admit it. Togusa smiles on his end.]

It's not to do with the bond between you. You've got a good relationship, but him, and Dante, and James, and I swear every other teenager I've been running into. They want to have any problem handled before they admit it to an adult. Had nobody that had their backs for so long, we're just ways to get into trouble, to them. More so me, I've got the double-authority-figure thing happening. But you too.

You can't take it personally. Eventually they'll figure out they can depend on us.

From:

daemonized

[Surprise, he's a sentimental fool. Togusa was right.]

I know you're right. And I know I should be patient. But worry and guilt intermingle and become /impatience/. And impatience becomes frustration.

I said this to Dante before, but I really am starting to feel like a very tired parent sometimes.

From:

standalonehuman

Yeah, it is way too late for the both of us. Talking to Matsuoka, how did I end up with five kids without having the fun part?

But I'd do anything for these idiots, even when they're idiots.

My ex was right all along, and I hope she never finds out.

Edited (.) Date: 2017-07-25 08:50 pm (UTC)

From:

daemonized

[Okay, he has to laugh at that.]

A most unfortunate kind of mystery, indeed.

Right about what? That you'd find yourself caring for too many kids?

From:

standalonehuman

Her exact words when she broke off our engagement were that I just wanted a family, didn't matter who it was with. That I wasn't specifically looking to get married to her, I just wanted the marriage-kids-package-deal.

Little bit of truth there. But I'm not as mad about that thought as I was months ago.

From:

daemonized

I'm sorry to hear that. Grain of truth or otherwise, it's a rather harsh accusation to place upon someone. As if your wants could be simplified into such broad strokes.

That being said... I think it's a fine little "family" to have, if we must be responsible for one.

From:

standalonehuman

Well, if we're going to keep the family metaphor going, please don't run to Mom when Dad gets mad again? He's gonna be pissed at me when I message him, no matter how long I wait, because he asked you not to tell me and you did anyway.

I'll talk to him, but not on your behalf, you two have to talk to each other directly eventually.

From:

daemonized

Don't worry yourself, I don't expect for you to talk to him on my behalf. I'll handle it, eventually.

If he's angry, it's at me, not you. Whatever consolation that might provide.

From:

standalonehuman

Frankly? Damn right, he's angry at you. He asked you not to do something and you did it.

It still wasn't his choice for me to find out about this, so it looks like I'm butting in to something that isn't my business. Because I am. But I'm going to anyway.