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Togusa

This is Togusa. Feel free to message me at any time.

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From:

standalonehuman

Oh NO! He pulled the 'I'm too dangerous to be around?' That's even worse! I am so sorry you have to watch this play out.

[Laughing with Tatsuo, not at him, Togusa promises...]

Complicated's a word for that. At least she probably does like him.

From:

thisloveisjustice

Well, it was less the 'I'm too dangerous to be around' and more the 'I did this thing and you said you'd hate me forever if I did this thing.' Basically.

What makes you think she likes him?

[Tatsuo wonders himself, but feels his opinion on the matter is probably tainted by Ryuuzaki's own feelings.]

From:

standalonehuman

It was your dream, but I don't think you could see the look on her face when you/Ryuuzaki were on the ground outside of the building. He scared her good.

From:

thisloveisjustice

Ah, but she wasn't actually present at that point. He left her behind in the tunnel when he went to go find Tacchan.

[and about two seconds after he hits 'send' he realizes what he typed]

From:

standalonehuman

And the plot thickens! Okay, so who might this be?

[Nope. Sorry. A hard time will be forever given about this.]

From:

thisloveisjustice

Tatsuya. Danno Tatsuya. Ryuuzaki's childhood best friend and foster brother. And the guy Ryuuzaki took a bullet for.

From:

standalonehuman

So. To recap. She wasn't even there when Ryuuzaki got shot. But when your mind needed help in the dream, she was one of the people that got brought in?

From:

thisloveisjustice

Yes. Which speaks more to Ryuuzaki's feelings for her than her feelings for him.

From:

standalonehuman

Damn. Okay, fair. Maybe I'm wrong, or maybe you need more evidence.

Hell of a thing, though. My own love life is complicated enough, none of us need to get saddled with a second one.

From:

thisloveisjustice

[Tatsuo squints at that. Then pulls up Retrospec and pokes around on the app until he finds what he's looking for. Oh.]

I would definitely advise avoiding this, if at all possible. The transference is super weird.

From:

standalonehuman

Would if I could. It just sort of...happened.

I cant keep following her around hoping she’ll come back again. Promise, the goal is to wish her the best and back off.

From:

thisloveisjustice

Easier said than done though, huh?

[why do his friends keep having shit luck with their relationships?]

From:

standalonehuman

Way easier.

I'll be okay. I don't want to get dramatic about this. She's wonderful, but it's better that Retrospec is out of her life.

From:

thisloveisjustice

Yeah. If you need to talk about it though, I'm happy to listen.

[since he currently understands the whole unrequited love thing]

From:

standalonehuman

I just. I might be able to handle this if we'd broken up for a real reason. Or really broken up, instead of THIS.

She looked at me, and she saw me instead of the cop. That doesn't happen with anybody else.

From:

thisloveisjustice

It's like having a light switched off.

Having a job with such a public 'face' is hard. The moment people find out they balk and think you're 'on job' 24/7.

From:

standalonehuman

Okay, that wasn't 100% fair because Koutarou. But you know what I mean. But you're right. Hell, even Ardyn falls into it.

I can know it was real. Right? It's okay to remember it, even if Retrospec wiped it out.

From:

thisloveisjustice

[yes, Togusa, don't forget about your bff]

Yes, It was real. It will always be real. So remember it all you want.

[he wants to say 'Retrospec can't take your memory of it,' but they both know that's probably not true]

From:

standalonehuman

[Togusa is very not okay for a few moments, gripping at his own arm tightly to keep from crying. He'd been burying all of it down, trying to just keep pushing on with work to not think about her and what she meant to him. It's one-sided now, obsessive, inappropriate, he cannot continue on this path. But just because it's over doesn't mean that it meant nothing. Tatsuo's words are a comfort that Togusa hadn't let anyone give to him.]

Tatsuo. Thank you.

And here, I was supposed to be taking care of you, hunh?

From:

thisloveisjustice

[and this is why Tatsuo is a hugglepuff... i mean hufflepuff]

I'm fine, Hitori. It's weird, but I'm fine.

[mostly because he's trying reallllly hard not to think about it too much lolololol because if he does, then he'll start getting a bit freaked out over the fact he's basically been implanted with someone else's feelings ~~good practice for next month lmao~~]

From:

standalonehuman

If this is fine, our coping mechanisms are starting to get really messed up. It is okay to not be fine, you just remembered getting shot. Hell, you're still recovering from it.

[Bring it back to the physical, maybe Tatsuo can deal with that part easier than, well, the emotional. He's thinking of Koutarou again, his friend's memory of an entire life spent with another woman. Of course this is going to keep happening to other people.]

From:

thisloveisjustice

As far as I can tell, it's been an addition rather than a substitution. My own feelings for the people in my life are still here. As far as I can tell.

[shit... does he need to make a checklist of important people? it's one thing to keep track of the new memories and something else entirely to try to keep track of the old]

At least this time I get to use my sick leave instead of my vacation!

[~~yes, yes it is going to keep happening~~]

From:

standalonehuman

[FUUUUUCK. Thanks, Tatsuo, Togusa hadn't even thought of that.]

From everything we've seen so far, nothing from our lives here has been forgotten. Remember, we've got to keep something to revert to if they lose track of us. So, I don't think your feelings and memories for your friends are going to go anywhere.

[And no, Togusa only has the barest, most flimsy proof for that idea, but he will cling to that proof as hard as he can.]

From:

thisloveisjustice

That's what I keep telling myself. The fact they have to have something to reset us to. Just in case.

[wow this is getting depressing]

Anyway. You want to know the wildest thing I learned from this recent batch of memories? Or more of confirmed. I've been suspecting this for a while, but couldn't make the full connection until recently.